ever since exams are over, i've been lazying around at home and all that i ever do is be on the net 24/7.
oh, trust me on that. i've no life, absolutely no life at all.
haha, my life surrounds around Tumblr, Music, Twitter, Youtube and sometimes my phone if i'm texting or maybe Skype.
i've been trying to be not-lazy but hehe, never happens.
but i think i'm actually just about to go out and get panty hose(for tmr's open house), paint and some other stuffs.
i've been liking all these alone time. i wanted to head to town to get my mango smoothie and my studs.
but damn, too far and the thought of dressing up is just ugh.
it's like i can never know what to wear and all my thoughts just run wild.
oh no don't get me wrong. i know exactly what to wear but my fats are just getting in the way.
*roll my damn eyes*
i've been thinking of heading back to my old tuition centre with Jan for math tuition but i've yet made up my mind. Cause i might take up home tuition since my math is... yeah.
plus, you can explain 9290752346523746523865023 times and i still would never get it.
haha, kidding. i just need more practice.
oh. i wanted to get skateboard but i think that's out of the question unless my mom finally is in a good mood or smth haha.
so i thought of just re-vamping my bike again haha. painting it white previously was a wrong choice cause the paint obv turned yellowish and eww.
plus i need to go get my chained and tires all fixed. speaking of which i might as well get a new bike but nah. this bike has been with me for... 5 years. wow. lol.
ok so anyway, i need to get my head right too.
right now all i care about is passing my freaking tests and exams and ofc, O's.
but damn, did i mention that that never happens?
and even if i passed my O's, i don't even know where i wanna go or what i want to do.
yes i did a blogpost about this before. but thinking about it makes me feel so... ugh.
ok what if i dont make it as a fashion designer or what if i make it my not everyone would have the same taste in fashion as i would and then i wouldnt be able to make it...........
fuck.
i think right now, since it's the holiday period and i've a lot of time except that i still have to head back to school for extra curriculum, eww.
i would study hard but first, i need to clear up my room.
i hate the exam periods. it's always the exam periods that my books and no, basically just everything is everywhere.
i would prolly revamp my room.
i need to get my stuffs right and then next year all i do is burn every single fucking book or material that made me go gaga muahehehehehe.
i think i might need to go to daiso to get more containers to store all my stuffs.
and yes, i know i promised videos and vlogs but pls bare with me.
i have so much to do and i need to arrange time with people to do these vlogs or videos.
esp that Clare cause we need to get out Believe Tour video done.
CLARISSA IF YOU'RE READING THIS, PLS CHOOSE A DAMN DATE. *STARES*
anyw, so yuuuuuuup.
apart of all the fucking shits i need to do, everyone around me is just.. fine.
well, i basically have just been in the "i don't give a fuck" phase.
but i'm trying to learn a new thing 'acceptance'.
this one's tough for me considering the fact that everything gets on my nerves.
well, i've just been trying to accept all the bad and good in people because it reflects in me too.
i want to be happy so first off, i've to learn to let go.
i honestly wouldn't be bothered if anyone comes up to me and call me a bitch in my face cause ok.
i dont really care.
i want to do things for me and everything i do i should start to place myself first.
obv not by being very self-centered.
but the fact that i think about how i feel.
it's like starting to love yourself.
so i want to start loving myself.
i know what i want and i get it done.
oh and i've been trying to be less direct but haha it never works. but its ok, i'll keep trying.
anyw, thats for now i guess.
thats all.
xoxo,
Chloe.