emotional

I don’t even know what to do anymore. I thought we were getting there. I was so happy that we were finally getting there. We were finally happier in this relationship & no more of those sad things. But why are we like this again? Why are we suddenly like this? You don’t like me anymore? You don’t care about me anymore? You don’t want to bother about me anymore? Why? What happened? What did I do? Did your feelings just fade like that? I’m sorry. I know I’m not good enough & I’m not the best choice out there. I know I’m bad & eww. I miss you. Pls tell me that everything’s going to be alright & that we’re gonna be fine. Pls don’t go. All those times that we had. When you sent me home. When you held my hands tight. When we hug. When we got closer, spent more time tgt. weren’t you happy when all of those happened? Didn’t you felt like we were getting there? When we had phone calls till late night. I had never expected that. I miss you how you were so eager to talk to me & that you always missed me. I miss us. What is going on? What did I do? Why is this happening? Why why why…
I’m sorry that I’m annoying or irritating. I’m sorry that I’m nt good enough. I can never be good enough I know. 
But do you know that you make me happy? It’s like you made me felt like all you ever cared about was me? Like it’s ok if you want to spend time with your friends instead but you would always get home & call me. When I’m alone you would call me & make me laugh. You always do, you make me smile & laugh.
You made me feel like there’s nothing to worry about if I’ve got you. You calling me princess was my favorite & you would always call me that & rhyme my name with everything just to put a smile on my face. I know I get jealous. I’m sorry. I don’t mean it. I don’t even mean the things I say when I’m mad/jealous. I’m sorry. I just don’t want to lose you & I dw to risk losing you. When you told me that you regret that break the other time, it made me felt like we wouldn’t be like how we are now & that you wouldn’t want to lose me. Neither do I.

Just tell me pls. What’s wrong? What happened between us? I really don’t get this & dk what’s wrong. all I can do is cry & sleep & cry & sleep. Pls don’t leave… You said we would go through thick & thin…
Where am I now? Where do I stand in your heart now? Am I even important to you? Do I even matter to you? Pls don’t leave.