We were supposed to meet at town but I was late, sigh. But it was okay because we had ramen for lunch hehehe. Walked about and we decided to do something that we used to always do together when we were 11/12. We to Kbox at Cine. I was literally the only one picking the songs and being high as hell about all the artists that I found hahaha while they singed and laughed at me being all excited lmao. Soon after, we just walked about and Jan and I both got a temporary tattoo each!
Even though it was temporary, I wanted something with a meaning behind it. I have always wanted to get inked but I didn't want to regret having it. Temporary tattoos are rather alright and it isn't forever so it was fine. I initially wanted to have a double sparrow or a pair of wings on my shoulder blades to represent that I am strong, independent and can fly on my own. I was free. But it wasn't possible because it would be awkward. I wanted it on my chest area and Kai said that it would be nicer to get the Divergent one recommended by the guy there.
She told me to remove the Divergent word and replace it with something else. I couldn't think of anything more fitting than the three words on my header. Perhaps to many these 3 words means nothing at all but they each represent me. i want to put this out there because I don't want another idiot telling me that these words don't make sense.
As many of you may already know, my name is Chloe. Chloe Ng. What you don't know is that I was previously named, Alycia. I changed my entire name (except my surname of course) when I was 8. My mom allowed me to choose another Christian name if I wanted to change my name. (She wanted to change my chinese name lol) It took me ages to choose Chloe. I chose it because I like the sound of it and it meant feminine, healthy and energetic. I didn't have the idea of keeping Alycia as part of my name, like I do now. Which is also why I decided to have Chloe Alycia as many of my usernames now, so on and so forth. I wanted Alycia to still be a part of me because my dad was the one who picked that name. My family still call me by that name. I am still known as Alycia to my closest friend in primary school. Anyway, if you haven't notice already, all the 3 words begin with the alphabet, A.
Adventures - the journeys and adventures that I have embarked on and wish to do so in the future that I will blog or have already done so. These are the ones that create my experiences, shape me into a better person, highlight my lowest and highest point in life. I appreciate these adventures and wish to have more to embark on, to learn and to grow more.
Addictions - the food, the beauty items, the gadgets, the little things in life that I am obsessed with. The crazy things that I am addicted to. The people that I surround myself with, that I am clinging onto. A positive and (sometimes) negative addictions.
Alive - I want to be alive. Be free. To feel and to breathe. On certain days or period of time, I wish not. Whatever it may be, I am still alive. I am still breathing. I am loud and energetic. This is me. I am alive.
The sparrows I have represents the freedom I have. The freedom to speak my mind, to be me without the fear of being judged, the freedom to be in control of myself, the freedom of everything else in life. I don't have to continuously live in the darkest moments of my life and live off negativity. I have wings like a sparrow and I will fly and I will fall. But I will still be able to fly again once I have recovered.
Just because it is a temporary tattoo doesn't mean I have something stupid and senseless sprayed on my body. I want something meaningful and something that represents me and that is close to my heart.
I am thankful that I still have these girls with me, as a pillar of strength, love and endless support. I am thankful that we are still close and that we never have any awkwardness between us. I look forward to many more years ahead with them because I wouldn't have had the only and best graduating year without them.
xo,
Chloe
