chloe alycia

Lately, I find myself dying. Not literally. Just, dying. Floating on the surface of everything. I would say that I have made certain things rather public since I posted them on my blog last year. But I still find myself sobbing away with a broken heart. I still find myself unable to question why, unable to be happier. I did let go. In fact, I know I am better off without any of the people that caused my unhappiness last year. When I got my job almost immediately after the walk-in "interview" that I had, I dived into being busy with work. I constantly had friends and closed ones who booked me on my off days and I didn't had any time to myself. I didn't have time to hibernate, to just breathe and focus on myself. I was always so busy and I didn't mind being busy. I chose to be busy. Why? Simply because I rather have myself being occupied with better thing mentally and physically. Moreover, I didn't have to deal with my emotions and messed up heart. I didn't have to deal with anything at all.

But yeah, lately I just find myself barely surviving. I don't know how to explain how I am feeling exactly. It is all just major up and down. One day, I would be fine and the next, I would push everyone away. I don't know, whatever. I guess that is why I chose to leave this site for awhile. Or leave anything away for awhile. Besides, I am busy with work. I wanted to be more positive on this site or all my social media platforms and more positive in real. So sorry if this space has been dead quite awhile. But thank you to those who still visit my page. I was kind of shock to see that there're still page views on this dead site.


Anyway with all of that aside, I finally completed Gossip Girl!! I am so happy but so so so upset... I miss it. I am just patiently (not really) waiting for KUWTK and PLL new episodes haha. This might be shocking to those who know me but omg, I have a very serious obsession with korean dramas lately. (Or anything related to korea/koreans esp the boys omfg) I finished Flower Boy Next Door in 1 day and now I am rewatching Dream High (and 2). If you guys have any Kdrama to introduce, PLEASE LET ME KNOW THANKS. I AM CLEARLY ADDICTED.

Enough of my no life talks, I finally met up with Chloe!! We went to SAM because we wanted to have photos taken together at the photobooth hehe. It was really great and nice to be out with her again. Also, I finally got my brows threaded. I cross my heart that the amount of pain is out of world man. I was literally screaming the entire time. I had quite a lot of photos taken since I haven't been taking much as I can't remember when was the last time.

xo,
Chloe