February 18, 2015

contented

Tonight, I feel contented. I would love to say that I am happy but I am not to the extent of feeling jubilant neither would I be jumping for joy. However, I do feel contented. I can only hope that I will feel this way for good. Or at least, for a good amount of time. I don't go to bed smiling or feeling upset but at the very least, I am glad to be contented and at peace with everything else in my life as well as myself. I am more than contented that I have found peace with myself. At least, for now. 

I don't have any major problems that is draining me in anyway so that is extremely pleasant. Though, I will say that I am extremely grateful to have my closed ones still around me. Also, that I often cross their mind. A bright smile would be hanging on my face as I receive a text from some people greeting good morning, asking what time I end my work so that they could meet me, asking me if I have eaten, dropping by my work place with food/drink, a necklace and a gift. It warms my heart knowing that they care so much. I wish that it stays this way. I wish I don't ever have to worry about any of them leaving or anything of that sort.

Work has been pretty smooth. I get along pretty well with my boss. We have girls talk form time to time.

I managed to catch up with an old friend and to know that I still matter a lot. 

I guess there's really nothing much about my life at this point that I feel "why is this happening to me". I have been really thankful and will constantly count my blessings. Lately, I am completely sold to the idea of travelling around the world and learning their language as well as culture. I cannot wait to live that dream of mine. I am dying to just travel or be in a cold country despite the fact that I absolutely cannot stand the cold (or the heat). But I do wish to explore and experience. This time, it isn't to escape or to runaway from anything or anyone but a desire to really live life and experience a new world within, a world. 

I guess you can say that these are some gibberish or nonsensical thought of mine. Ha, but I just had a thought of jotting this down here. Technically, typing. Oh, does it matter? As long as it is out of my chest and mind, that is. haha. Do you wish to travel to? What for? Where to? With who?

xo,
Chloe