I mean what if no one is reading this and I'm just like talking to myself?
well, indeed i actually am...
Oh wells, today is pretty much alright. except that i totally screwed up my f&n paper and obv my math p1 too... /cries/
well that aside, let's talk about today then.
actually, i was thinking of uploading the videos that i've done myself (be it requested or not) but... i'm shy and obv afraid that you guys might think that i'm stupid... hahaha (which i am, actually)
hmm, my surprise was ruined.... by Por. (if you're seeing this, i hate you -kidding-)
then nothing much...
was planning on just heading home which i did just not right away after the papers hahaha
Sya was with Idham while i was on the other end.
well, i like seeing them together, haha. but it can be very annoying sometimes (actually just all the time)
no no, don't get me wrong. it's being sya is already abusive enough then comes Idham the one that never fails to get on my damn nerves hahaha
i missed you...
then obv i got home. changed. flop onto my bed. watched the hobbit.
i still am actually because apparently i fell asleep and i replayed it again hahaha
then the lit thingy freaked me out cause i thought i passed Fa the wrong notes lol...
but whatever. i doubt i'll make it to 4E next year anyways or maybe not even sec4???
but either ways, i'm still in my air-conditioned room... watching hobbit hahaha
gave sya a call, heard that she's actually hanging out with them.
i died a little.
it used to be me.
the one,
the one that's hanging out
with you guys.
but not anymore now.
well, ever since...
& then this...
'when you don't have him,
you just come running back.
back to us.'
something i'll never be able to forget.
no, i won't.
not hatreds.
just regretful...
no, i told myself to be happy.
cause' if i did meant something,
i wouldn't be so easy to get rid of.
or to even be ignored.
no, i won't bother.
not anymore.
why should i?
i will be happy,
if i think less about all of,
all of this.
i love you guys,
the fun we had.
it was all great,
& bad too.
but no regrets.
xo
might be heading to novena's starbucks to study with Rach.
not sure yet, indecisive.
screw it.
just fail.
recently, i've just been trying to limit my vulgarities
& all the negative thoughts.
i want to be better than this but at the same time,
nothing is making me feel like it's worth it.
i feel like i'm dead emotionally...
ugh
4 more days...
&
8 more days...
still hoping,
not going to give up.
i wouldn't anyways.
there's still hope,
i know it.
i believe in us.
xo,
Chloe