song title as a blog post title because it's stuck in my head.
it's an old song but you need to know that old music has and will always be better than the music nowadays.
so anyway, today was pretty much meh.
though, i think something might be wrong with my stomach or idk what.
it's just something along that area...
i was sharing a bowl of macaroni with sya and since we were done,
i had to return the bowl.
i was about to stand up and that's when the pain started..
the pain was a 10/10 kind of pain.
i had to stay in a "bend-over" position so that it wouldn't hurt and walk slowly..
not quite sure what was going on but whatever.
and damn, kino just had to smack me by accident to make everything hurt more hahaha
he didn't do it on purpose plus sya told him off (she was acting gangster as usual. nobody takes it seriously) hahaha
oh then i received bad news...
my poa grades dropped hais
honestly, Mr Choo has been very nice and all
i have no freaking idea why some people can jsut be so damn ungrateful.
like dude, you don't wish to know just stfu and be quiet.
you don't have to ask him to not tag you????
you were so argh. be grateful at least????
can't stand people who are like this, seriously.
anyways,
one more day.
just one more day.
i could either be crying niagara falls or i could be on cloud nine.
50-50
i feel like... we might start over and carry on like we did before.
we pulled through once.
we can always do that again, together.
but... at the same time, i could be crushed again.
i pray every night,
i thank god for my power rangers.
i thank him for letting them to be my side.
i thank him for all my food and water.
i thank him for making us together, by accident.
i thank him for this accident.
because it was this accident that made me smile,
that made me happy,
that made me want to carry on,
not give up.
because i know that there's someone,
you,
right here,
by my side.
i told god that this accident,
it wasn't going to be just,
"any accident'.
it was the accident that made me happy.
because i'm glad that i met you.
i never thought it would've ever happened.
i never thought you'd meant so much to me.
i pray to god,
asking him,
whatever's going to happen,
will you be happy?
because that's what i honestly want.
i'm not giving up yet.
i still have till tmr.
do you remember the deal we had?
the deal -
if we ever had a fight, we would calm down and talk things out?
if we ever had an issue with one another, we would talk it out?
if we ever had problems, we would tell one another?
no lies?
i remember everything.
i remember how just weeks ago,
when we pulled through it the first time,
we were happy.
well, at least i was.
i never want to be on cloud nine and then get right back down.
i never want that again.
that would be my worst fall and i don't ever want that.
it bruised me, killed me and worst of all, scarred me.
you knew i was fragile and afraid.
you knew everything.
yet, you still accepted me for me.
you wanted the best for me.
you wanted me to be happy.
and i was.
i felt happy when i was with you.
you made my darkness disappear.
i thank you for that.
i would never want to let you go.
i'll still fight for you
you're worth it.
i still believe in us and,
i still do have faith and hope in us.
thank you for pampering and showering with lots of love like a princess of yours.
thank you for being there every time i'm down.
thank you for being so patient with me even when i'm grumpy and blah.
thank you for caring (well, most of the time).
thank you for making me smile non-stop.
thank you for being my knight hahaha
'catching feelings' post already has everything that i want to say to you.
i honestly dont want tmr to come..
but i'll be prepared.
you said you'd be that guy, for me,
and i'll be waiting.
there's just so much more that i wish i could say to you.
i know there's so much more ahead of us.
i'm gonna hope for the best because,
you are the best and i have faith.
i believe in you...
in us.
xoxo,
Chloe.