I don't know if I am supposed to be pissed at this whole situation or if I am supposed to feel upset/sad or... I don't even know if it is a "situation" because it is fucking stupid and ridiculous. It is funny how you have been there for someone and you have gotten to know someone through all these years and you've opened their heart and comforted them when they needed you, and fought/argued with them to get your point across. But then suddenly, they just decided to cut you out of their important list and just throw you down to the "it's complicated" section when it isn't even fucking complicated. It is not because this whole "thing" is fucked up as hell. You think they are the best and you think they will be forever. I may not be the best either, or forever. Because "forever", is bullshit. Every time I talk to someone about us (which ever someone it involves), they would just revert it back to the fucking "it's complicated" thing and just make it seem like they are oh-so-wonderful while I am just-another-person-I-talk-to-when-I-am-at-my-lowest-because-I-know-she-will-be-there-no-matter-what. Fuck you, because it hurts me that you would choose in such a situation. You should know that both are equally important and that you should fucking value both because that is the right thing to do. If you are going to get hated on too, just because you are my boyfriend or my bestfriend or someone close to me, then cool, let it be that way. Because you know what? It is outrageous that someone, at your age, is still so afraid of people judging you, hating on you, not wanting to befriend you. C'mon, the last time I have been through this phase was never and when my friends turned their back on me because of hate was when I as 11. So unless you are still a kid, I suggest you grow the fuck up. If you don't think you can handle hate, or being together (which ever way) with someone that is being hated on and that people would dislike you too for that reason, you should never befriend anyone or get yourself into anything. Furthermore, people who hate on others for befriending someone that you dislike/hate, then please, lock yourself up in a quiet room and reflect. You are only in secondary school and if you can't even deal with such issues, or grow the hell up from such childish and immature acts, then I honestly am worried for you as you go on to the next stage of life and into a new environment where things are going to be as easy anymore. I am able to understand that being alone is not everyone's cup of tea and some might not even be able to handle being alone and stuff. However, it goes to a certain extent where people are being controlled by their friends for who they are allowed to "like" or "dislike/hate" or even, befriend with. I never knew such issues still existed. I can understand too, if some are afraid of not having friends because let's face it, we all need and want people (friends/closed ones) that we can count on when we get too tired with life and need some encouragement. But honestly though, controlled by people you call your "friends", "bros", "best friends", (whatever else)? What's wrong with being yourself and choosing for yourself who you want to befriend with and not get pressurised by peer pressure? Just do what you like and what makes you happy. Of course, not by being "cool" and breaking all the laws and rules (duhz). I am kind of just annoyed that some just do not have the balls to stand up for someone that means something to them or even, for themselves. It is plainly pathetic and you seriously, once again, need to grow up. People that are hating too, need to grow up and get themselves some mirrors to do a ton of reflections (not literally).
When you are ready to be a man (or lady/woman), get back to me. Or don't ever. I don't need or want people that are so half-in-half-out in my life. Stand firm on your decisions and your choices because they are what you want and what makes you happy. Fuck them haters because ain't nobody got time to deal with ignorant cunts (also people who assume that they know everything about you).
Have a nice life.
xo,
Chloe.
