I wouldn't say I am sorry because I don't think it is something I should be apologising for, but I would say that I am sorry. Because my posts lately have been rather personal and emotional. I guess I am pretty much fine now (if you're wondering). I am fine in a sense that I accept that life goes on and we all have to move on to enjoy other parts of life and that's what I'm going to do. From time to time, I think of those things a lot and would wish that I don't have feelings or my mind at all but sadly, I do and that is just how it is going to be. I'll miss it incredibly from time to time. Thus, I would hope to keep myself busy with any other thing available.
I only have one last paper and I am done with studying, for now. I went on a job hunt today with Sya (and a third party that crashed but it's ok I'm used to it). Felt like we hadn't spend any time together at all for a really long time but either way, today was rather alright. I got a job already! Am going to start work tomorrow then on Sunday I'll just do a ton of mcqs, pft.
I am so so so tired. Lately, I feel like I can sleep for ages and ages. I would be tired all the time. That is just physically. I am so emotionally worn out that I do not wish to feel for or about anything else. I just wish to stop and hibernate. I wish I am able to just stop feeling negative about anything. I constantly feel like I am the ugliest human being, fattest and just everything gone wrong. I don't feel confident about myself but at the same time, I feel fine. I think it's just a phase and hope that it is.
I hope this constant battle within myself would just stop and let me have a break.
I've received this anonymous message/request on my askfm and I thought it was really sweet and it did made my day!! (thank you to whoever you are!! love love) Anyway, I thought yes maybe I shall blog more about the products I use for skincare or my make up. Basically, anything I love!! I can't wait to start and see how the response would be!
I guess that is all for now! Oh wait, I am broke now but it is okay because I bought this camisole and I fucking love it (sorry but I just can't deal) and a new bag!!! hehehe, can't wait for the bag to arrive.
xo,
Chloe
