Hello muchkins.
I am dead. Legit dead.
I am so tired but not sleepy. I am tired but I still like staying up and running around town doing absolutely nothing. Today isn't that great of a day so I thought I should talk some time here before I sink even deeper into my sea of assignments and tasks.
I have legit broke. Not that bad but quite bad too. This makes me regret all the times I have my high pay and spend them on new clothes, shoes and shits for school. Now I want to stab myself or just smack myself so hard. I am drowning but I am also kind of used to this.
I can't help but feel so ugly these days or just plainly indifferent about everything. It kind of sucks that I either don't feel anything at all or I just feel everything all at once. I need to get my shit together man.
I wavered quite a few times but I can still safely say that I am still strong and will only get stronger because ain't no shit going to get to me. Honestly will never understand why politics or dramas have to exist because it is plainly dumb as fuck and people need to just suck it in and get over fucking shits. Shits that don't even involve them. But either way, it doesn't really matter. It never does anyway.
I am just really thankful to have people around me that are genuine. Though, I am not sure if they will be a constant because it is all too early to judge but at least they are genuine and they are here for me when I needed them to be.
I am starting to appreciate long bus rides again and more. On some days, or nights, it can get pretty freaking lonely and shit but there are times where I do need those long ass rides to let me have some time alone to think. Think about all the stuffs that are going on or just how I am going to complete all my assignments with no clue on what I am doing.
I want to be kind to people. I want to be less vulgar but I have also swore quite a number of times in this entire post (sorry, not sorry). I want to get my shit together. I want to start saving and earning more money.
I am on a hunt to pack up my entire 2 weeks break for work and events. 2 weeks, 14 days and that is 11 days taken away.
I cannot wait to be done with block 2 already, urgh.
Goodnight.
xo,
Chloe