Hello earthlings! I suppose it has been almost a month since I have last updated this site. After being in design and having been through block 2, I can finally and truly understand what being "busy" meant. It isn't necessarily the worst thing to go through or anything. Things get a little better and lighter when you have friends around you who are after (possibly) the same dream and to joke around with.
I read through my last post and told myself that I shall never ever decide that writing up on here with almost no sleep and assignments to rush for, is a good idea. I sincerely feel apologetic for all the grammatical mistakes, etc that I have made in my previous post hahaha.
On another note, I am happy.
I am so happy to have people around me. People that I can joke around with and not feel alone. Perhaps in time to come, I will feel more comfortable than I already am with them and will be more me with them. I guess in a way, I never thought that I would really click well with anyone. In fact, I never really thought that I would be capable of speaking to a single soul since the start of freshmen orientation and design orientation.
But I am glad.
Glad to have opened my golden mouth to actually communicate. Thankful that these bunch of assholes reacted and now we are pretty much quite tight. I can only hope that this continues and that we will always be how we are now, or better yet, even closer.
Anyway, just in case if any of you are wondering, I am finally having my holidays! I basically did nothing but rush for assignments and submissions for almost an entire month. After my visit to Lasalle's open house, I legitimately felt extremely motivated. Despite the fact that I didn't get any sleep at all on most of the nights, I could still feel the rush in me wanting to do something, to complete my work. To get me by, I had almost all the good food because we were mostly running around or at dhoby most of the time. Thus, we had good food every other day, or everyday. Furthermore, I keep having seaweed chickens and white coffees and teh pengs that I think I have gained nothing but 10kg? Argh. We blasted In The Lonely Hour most of the days of our submission week and I promise your ears would have bled listening to me sing hahaha.
But! We made it! I would say, this is by far the proudest I have been for my work. It isn't the best and I had a better picture of it in my head but I promise, to only do better the next time. And to stop pushing everything off to the very last minute. I clearly need to have a better time management.
I don't really know what to call us so let's just go with Avengers for now. We headed to Ikea to have some food and then we headed to town to walk about. Without a doubt, we spent hours at the sticker store just picking out some for our laptop and annoyed the crap out of Wang Tao because he had to wait. The night didn't go as planned but it's okay because we still had good food and some drinks!
We had in mind to be drunk or at least get tipsy but none of that happened. Except, Wang Tao was gone. It was hilarious and I guess that made my night. The companion and the night went hand in hand and I am pleased we still got what we wanted.
Bumped into a lady crying on the streets. She was literally bawling her eyes out. She's 28 and she is bawling her eyes out, on her knees, in the middle of Orchard Road. Of course, we all sat with her and coaxed her. Funny how we are 17/18 year olds but we are giving her advices because what we have been through is just a quarter of what she is feeling right now. Being gay doesn't make it easier neither does being straight. I can only say that everything requires both hands to clap in order for things to work out. We are all equal and it doesn't matter if you are gay or straight. Looking at her really made me realise how strong I have been and I can't help but feel proud of myself. I am so thankful that I didn't give up just there and then and that I have made it to where I am right now. I am thankful for all the shits I have been through, in order to be stronger. I wish she knew she deserves better and that she doesn't deserve to be in that situation. I wish she could see that she has a choice. Funny huh, the way a human brain works. You never really listen because at the point, you just desperately want that person back in your arms.
It's so crazy how love turns us into someone we thought we would turn out to be.
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Moving on, I had another night out with the slutz! The food was nothing but amazeballs because it is chomp chomp and nothing beats chomp chomp in my heart. I would love to have it everyday but I do not wish to gain all the crazy weight ahahaha. We didn't feel like going to Clarke Quay because it's really far away so we made our way around the area and landed ourselves at Happy Daze! It was a really cozy corner and I loved the atmosphere. I loved how we had sofas to ourselves, a couple of drinks and just some deep and incredible heart to heart talks. Honestly, I love heart to heart talks. I feel like that is when you genuinely feel and know how someone is. You get to know how they feel, what is going through their mind. You get to be the one that they share their load with. You instantly feel closer to the other party because of the secrets you share, the thoughts you shared, the words you speak with each other and your hearts really connect. I don't see the point in meaningless conversations of just hi and bye. I appreciate long conversations where you can either get to know the other person deeper and better or you can share yourself. Or, a part of yourself.
These two nights have been a great kickstart to my holidays. I am really glad to have conversations with people and a couple of drinks and good food. I am glad that I am at a stage of my life where I have inner peace with myself and that I know I am strong enough for anything. I more than happy that I have moved on from that phase and that I am able to live my life everyday feeling happy and to live in the moment. But at the same time, I am working towards (and closer to) my dreams. I hope all of you have peace as well. I am pleased to have spoke with you, to have caught up a little. To know that I still hold a place in your heart and that I cross your mind from time to time. I am glad that we both agreed that moving on was the best thing to do.
I pray and hope for better days and more motivated days as well. Half of 2015 is gone. & it has been almost a smooth ride. I might have lost someone really great in my life that I really hold close to me but everything else has been working out for me so far. I don't see why I shouldn't have a smile on my face. Positive! *inserts bling emoji* hehe
My schedule for the holidays are pretty packed. I can't wait to dye my hair tomorrow! Then there's Koova's chalet from the 16-18. Followingly, I have work and then a photoshoot. And another shoot with Jenz. I also need to start on my next assignment due to E-learning week. I pretty much stayed home the entire day today to have a movie marathon alone and it feels really good to be alone. Though, it wouldn't hurt to have someone to share this with.
Heh, sorry for the lengthy post. But I'll be back soon!
xo,
Chloe
