HUGE STEP FORWARD

So, the month of August haven't been easy for me and, it sucks so bad. I needed a change, to step out of my comfort zone to make me feel a little better about myself. I can't move on from a lot of things, especially that one thing, and I am still stuck in the stress zone as I am preparing for my prelims and my O's. Things around me are also not working out, which made me felt even more horrible. I can't even keep track of the amount of time I have cried over this month. I felt so lost and.... dead.

Thankfully, I have my pillars. I have people who genuinely cares for me. They are there for me and made me feel things would get better, eventually. I wouldn't deny that I am still stuck in this dark world but I hope that I am able to step out of it soon (whether or not I move on).

I have been wanting to cut my hair for quite some time already. However, as usual, I was indecisive about it. I never trusted anyone with my hair and besides, I do cut my own hair. Also, needless to say, I love my long hair way too much to let it go. The last time I had a hair cut (not a trim) was, 5 years ago. Ever since that horrible experience at my mom's friend's salon, I never ever trusted anyone with my hair and never ever had a proper hair cut at a salon. So yes, I have been pretty much cutting my hair by myself ever since I was 11 haha. I hated the fact that my hair was so flat and dull, due to my long hair weighing everything down. My hair is naturally straight/wavy. It depends because, it has a mind of its own. Kylie Jenner, has always been an inspiration to me. Her sense of style is almost similar to mine - simple, chill. Though, I wouldn't say I am exactly like her, (if not I would totally date myself and my ife would be complete). Her hair was one of the things that I liked about her. Her current hair though, is too short and it wouldn't suit me because I don't suit short hair. So I took a photo of her hair (of that period of time) that I liked very much, showed it to the stylist and viola!

He could tell too, that I was afraid of cutting my hair. So, he cut my hair till I was happy with the length and then layered it. I am in love, jesus. First of all, I would definitely go back to that salon because I have never had such a great experience at a salon before. Secondly, I can't believe I took such a huge step out of my comfort zone and I fucking love my hair so badly!!!! Lastly, to all of you out there who wants to do something but is very indecisive, I say just do it. Seriously. I feel so light and just... idk. Happy, or at least I'm in a better mood that I am during the past week.

And, a big thank you to Rach, Jen, Clare, Ed and Jo for giving me the courage and support!!!! A big heart for all of you!!

xo,
Chloe