I don't even know where to begin with. I have been wanting to go to the gym to release all the negativity but I just don't want to get out of bed. I don't want to do anything else except lay in bed and watch all the soppy romance movies. I hate feeling like this. I hate this. Everything I thought would have turned out great turned out to be a complete bullshit. Everything I pictured to be all great and according to my "plans", are bullshit. I can't get rid of this negativity and I hate it. I hate letting all these negativity to consume me, inside and out.
Worst yet, you don't seem like you care. I don't trust anyone's words anymore. I can't believe that this is how everyone is like to me when I have been treating them well. Everything is just bullshit and I don't wish to be on this Earth anymore. It is so cruel and so mean.
This day, it was supposed to be special but it isn't anymore (to you I guess). I am just stuck here missing you and wondering why. Saying I love you, but you're no longer around,
Bye.
